Stress.

So today I have my first exam.
It's the first of the two resits I'm taking, today's being the Drama written exam. I thought I'd done well on it last time seeing as I hadn't been in college for 6months, but apparently not, as I got an E for the written bit which, thanks to my 79/80 A grade on the practical bit, was bumped overall down to a C. At the time I was distraught, but now I can see that even sitting the exam was an achievement in itself, and the C isn't the worst thing in the world.
I agreed to have another crack at it, and so I am. Today. I'm not feeling too confident about it, mainly because the bulk of revision I have been able to do has been for me English Literature exam, which is much more important to me. However, if I can pull off a slight grade raise I might be able to get my overall AS grade for Drama up to a B, but we'll just have to see.

The main source of my stress is more that it's Friday.
Which means tomorrow is Saturday. Which means I'm driving to London.
Which means it's nearly Monday. Which means my sister is coming home.
Which means it's nearly Wednesday. Which is when we're planning telling her all the amazing (read: shit) stuff that's happened while she's been away.

Any of you who have been following me for a fair while will know of this predicament. My sister went to Australia to study for her PHD, and while she was away, shit happened. I made the choice not to tell her, because I knew if we told her she'd be on the first plane home, and I couldn't do that to her. I couldn't ruin her opportunity like that.
So when she comes home, we have to tell her.
So obviously right now I'm an utter bag of nerves.

The plus side is that by being Friday today, it means the iPad will be here in a week XD but then so will my politics resit :/

Ah well. Smile :)

H.x

Future forwards.

Come September it'll be time for me to go back to college full time, with people and everything, and I'm a little scared.
Was talking to dad about college today and feel a bit calmer in terms of exams. I've got my English Lit AS exam and 2 other AS resits (drama & politics) coming up in just under a month. I'm resitting those two because, due to my personal circumstances, obvs, I fucked them up last time and ended up with a C and D respectively, despite having nearly full marks on the drama practical performance. I'm going to focus more on the English exam but will obviously give the others a good go. The more I think about it the less terrible a C at AD seems, besides, Uni's don't really pay attention to the AS, just the full A level.
In the end, I'll carry on English Lit and Politics to A2: English because it's my subject, and Politics because I should be able to get the D up easier than in drama. There's no way I could cope with drama unfortunately. My third full A Level will be completed by way of a fast track course or evening class... Just got to decide what subject though!
At the end of the next academic year, eg 2011, the aim is to end up with my 3 full A Levels at AAB or ABB, which should be good enough for the Uni's I want... which is something else I know nothing about right now...